Money - or the lack there of
I think I need to prioritize. It now takes me nearly all damn day to read the blogs I have tagged! It's not doing much for my work ethic. But then my current job doesn't really demand much work ethic.

As you may have summized the weekend was GREAT! We spent every single day hiking and WOW did we see some amazing countryside! N's alergies acted up the entire time, but he went with us anyway and seemed to manage to enjoy himself. It was just really really nice to spend a relaxing weekend with everyone who's important to me, and to have them all get along.

In other news N seems to be really really bothered by the fact that we are probably not going to have the money to go to Scottland this year. I can't figure out if he's more bothered by the fact that we can't seem to save enough money to take a decent vacation, 0r the fact that we keep putting off getting married. He actually askesd me last night "If we don't get to Scottland this year, are you going to leave me?"

I'm truthfully not worried about it. I know he loves me and wants to marry me. In fact, in my heat and mind we are already married, already joined for the remainder of our lives. I gave my heart and soul to him long before he ever proposed. I really don't need some cerimony to make it 'real' for me. It already is. As for the vacation part of the deal, yeah, I would LOVE to do it, but I guess I never really believed that it would happen. I won't until I have plane tickets in my hand. I'm just that way. So, if that falls through I'll live.

I think, for N, living this way is hard for him. He grew up having money. He's never really wanted for anything. His family took European vacations every other year and they always lived well above the 'comfort' level. Until recently apartently so did he. He had a serease of good paying jobs and not only got to do what he wanted but also built up a savings account. Then he desided to change carreers. To start back at the bottom of the ladder... the the bottom fell out of the job industry and he STUCK at the bottom of a ladder that suddenly has a LOT less rungs. It's been frustrating to him to say the least. At least that's how _I_ see it. Last night he was talking about taking a second job. I, as always, am against it. and NO I won't leave him if we don't get to scottland this year, nor if we don't the year after, nor the year after...

Can't say for him though *grin*